Final goodbye

I messed up and put this post in my photo blog :( so changing it to come on my regular blog.

ok ok ... i know its pathetic but i am trying my hand at poetry or with this attempt just rhyming words :| but bear with me people... as I plan to persevere


Today is the final goodbye
We won't have a second chance to say bye bye
I expected sadness I expected melancholy
I never expected it to be just another day
I expected a hug I expected a kiss
I never expected to not hear even a bye
I know the moment will never come again
I know the unsaid words will echo in the silence
They will repeat in the if only space
I know that the unmade gestures will play in the still recesses
They will repeat in the what if terrain
I know I would have returned if he would have but said the word
But he is busy in his world where I am naught but a pain
I don't rate a farewell nor a kiss goodbye
But he is my life and this will make me cry
I won't let the tears show smile instead and give a jaunty ciao
And when it rains I will cry
So he never knows that I know he was never mine to expect a goodbye

My demons

It’s a long road up ahead

And I have to travel it on my own

Its not the hardships that make me pause

Its not the perils that make me think twice

 

It’s the fear of being all alone that

sends a chill running up my spine

The thought of dying alone,

without anyone to say goodbye to,

that brings out the goosebumps on my skin

 

I wonder what I would like my epitaph to read

A sudden pause, A heavy pause,

as I chilling thought makes it way into my head

will there be someone to even put me in a grave?

Let alone carve out a message in my remembrance

 

I do not fear insects, I do not fear rodents

I do not fear demons, I do not fear devils

I do not fear vampires, I do not fear witches

I do not fear death, I do not fear torment in hell

I fear torment on earth, the torment of being lonely

Not alone but lonely, where my thoughts remain unheard

My emotions untold, my memories unshared.